Sunday, August 11, 2019

Carolines don't like my blog

There was a lady named Caroline I met at an improv show. We exchanged numbers and she began to pursue me, she showed me some red flags when we would text, but I wanted to engage in premarital intercourse with her, so I ignored these red flags.

One night, she came to see me perform, and after I went to her place and we did that. It was more like performing surgery. It took a long time, and she was being annoying and saying antagonistic things most of the event. Which was similar to a root canal I had near the end of my last relationship.

A week or so later I posted a blog about how I don't care for certain elements of feminism titled "Behind every great man, there is a great woman." I was writing this article for about a month and a half or so, because I knew it was controversial and wanted to be careful with how I put it out there. She texted me, some time later saying "I read your blog, I'm out" and unfriended me on Facebook. 

Another female I had been seeing had read this same post, she told me she didn't read the whole thing but was upset by it. We ended up engaging in premarital activities that night, and I have not seen her since. I found it interesting that we still got together after she'd read it, and find it more fitting that we haven't done it again. 

A few months ago, I met another girl named Caroline at a bar. We talked for a bit, I then left and said we should get together another time soon. She gave me her number and she put in both her first and last name in my contacts. I called her a few days later, we set up a date, and she asked for my last name, I didn't give it to her. 

She then texted me later saying that she couldn't agree to go out with me without knowing my last name. She feared I would kidnap her (a joke I imagine) and no one would be able to find out who I was unless my last name was present in her contacts. A ploy to make me give it to her,I didn't want to, I found it weird that she wanted it so much, but I I gave it to her. You might find it weird that I didn't want to give it to her, I found it annoying that she asked, and not a big deal for her to have to know.

Later, she texted me saying that she thought my blog was "interesting". I asked if she agreed to go out on the day we agreed upon and she said that she didn't think that we had anything in common. I imagine she got offended or upset by some of my articles.

The blog posts I've written this year are primarily about women. My thoughts, opinions and experiences with them. Dating has been an important part of my life, finding beautiful women to exchange orgasms with. Women are harder to understand than men, especially in the dating realm, so I've been very active in learning about this topic the past two years or so. 

I imagine that certain women read this and feel that I am trying to make them wrong, and or they get emotionally triggered and decide that I am a toxically masculine, womanizing misogynist. I'm pushing for positive masculinity. 

Because things like toxic masculinity and misogyny are so openly talked about. Shaming men is a common and even an encouraged practice. While Toxic femininity and misandry are not on most people's radar. If we all want to be equal, then things should be equal on all playing fields.

I imagine that I did not mesh well with these two Carolines, and something mutually beneficial may not have sparked if they had not read my blog. I share myself and my opinions about women on here because that is what I am interested in learning and writing about right now. It's important to me to push that masculinity is not toxic.

I am a lot deeper than just my anti matriarchal spews on this blog. But that is what I am putting on here, so I can't blame you for relating to me as that, if that is what you are doing. 

I have been misunderstood a lot through out my life, as have a lot of people. And Carolines seem to dislike my views on their kind. It's okay if you are a Caroline, we are just not a match.

Sunday, August 4, 2019

Sexual Nature

I finished reading this book called Sex at Dawn by Christopher Ryan and Cacilda Jetha awhile back. It breaks down human and sexual nature from our hunter gatherer days, and how it has morphed into monogamy, marriage, having kids, cheating, divorce, etcetera. Because as human beings, we want security (marriage, kids) along with variety (one night stands, variety of sexual partners). I find this stuff very interesting, and looking at modern day relationships versus where I evolved from tells us why modern day relationships look the way they do.

One element that I found extremely interesting and true is our inherently sexually selfish desires. Which stems from procreation, and wanting to pass on stronger genes. After having listened to the Alan Roger Curries audio book The Beta Male Revolution, and The Rational Male a lot of this stuff was confirmed about alpha and beta males versus promiscuous women and good girl types.

The men that have the most sex, with the most women are alpha male types. And the women who have the most sex are the promiscuous types.

In an ideal world for alpha males. They would spend their youth having sex with many promiscuous girls and women. Once he reaches a ripe age for reproduction, or he finds a nice prudish good girl to lock down and marry, he would. Preferably an attractive woman who is a virgin, and does not act promiscuous or show any signs of leaving or cheating on him. He would get her pregnant, to ensure his genes being passed on, and once his wife is "subdued" he can go out and have his fun with various promiscuous females.

This way, the men get to have their cake and eat it too. They get their sexual needs met with a variety of women, and he ensures his paternity by impregnating his wife.

In an ideal world for promiscuous women. They would spend their youth having sex with various, erotically dominant alpha males. Once they reach a ripe age for reproduction and marriage, they settle down with an emotionally available, wealthy (resource providing) beta male. Once they marry him and get bored of the potentially bland sex, they would most likely go out and have some hot sex with an alpha male type, or invite one over when her husband is at work. Allowing herself to be impregnated by a strong alpha male type, for the beta male husband to raise as his own. As the stronger genes are being passed on, and being raised by a more reliable, resource providing man.

This way, the women get to have their cake and eat it too, They get their sexual needs met and the offspring that they want. While also having their emotional and financial needs met by their husbands.

If you are being honest with yourself, this would be an ideal situation if their were no repercussions. We all want to have our cake and eat it too. It is natural. But, being that their are other people required with this formula that are being used, it doesn't work well in society. It has been happening for a long time, and their is a lot of damage that has been done when this kind of stuff happens.

Long term monogamy is not really a "natural" thing, it just works for men to have peace of mind that their paternity is confirmed. And it gives women more peace of mind to know that their husband won't leave them when they are pregnant. Laws are set in place to create security, which reduces excitement and variety with sexuality in long term relationships, for the most part. That's just what I believe happens from my observations and what I read and listen to.

The book goes into our true sexual nature, comparing us to bonobos and chimps, and analyzing our nature as hunter and gatherer types. Looking at our past, we were not meant to sit at cubicles for 40 hours a week, so we have back and sleep problems. Just as our ancestors ate meat, some people choose to be vegetarian.

Just as our ancestors were sleeping around, we eventually evolved into being monogamous. Marriage has evolved into a normal thing that you do once you hit a certain age.  With our true sexual nature, we are not meant to settle down with one person for most of our lives, thus, cheating and divorce is very common.

I found this extremely interesting, because for the most part, men and women want different things sexually, in how we pass our genes on to create more of us.

It also confirmed my desire as a man to be promiscuous, and not settle down with any one woman too quickly, as I am young. I want to continue focusing on building myself, to be a better partner for an amazing woman someday.

I have become very interested in sex if you haven't noticed, so if anyone is interested in discussing it with me, hit me up.

Sunday, July 28, 2019

Shifts of Interest

When I started writing this blog, I was obsessed with writing comedy, and was subtly angry/dissatisfied about everything in my life. I was in a loll with the ladies, and made sex something that I didn't "need" because I didn't feel capable or equipped in dating. 

I felt like talking about sex was hacky, and easy, and was not truly in integrity with being funny. So I didn't really do it, 'twas more my excuse for not being able to get laid. 


So I obsessed and focused on writing, learning about comedy, performing when I could, and watching lots of movies and TV. I started writing about comedians I liked and things I was dissatisfied about in life on here. 

Then I discovered Landmark shortly after in January of 2016, I shifted to writing about self helpy type of things, and ways to make myself feel better by taking action in my life. I became more positive, and discovered a lot more love for people.  

One thing that I did recently, that stems from this education is make phone calls to  acknowledge people. It seems weird and some fear and hesitation comes up, but I always feel better after having called someone and told them something I admire about them, or just say "I acknowledge you for being my friend." People really appreciate it and get value out of hearing that from  you. It doesn't have to be "for" anything, other than you want to make them and yourself feel good.

In the last three years or so, I talked about comedy, self helpy things, and in the last year and a half I have been very focused on researching dating, masculinity and femininity, etcetera. My former self is calling me a hack, although I am still doing and in pursuit of creating things, it has merged with sexuality.  

Part of me wants to ease up on the sexual stuff, but I find it very interesting. Also having gone through a painful breakup about eight months ago. I'm taking a lot preventative medicine and action in this research and field studying. 
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I just finished another audio book "The Rational Male" by Rollo Tomassi. Via a recommendation from a guy I've been watching on YouTube, Richard Cooper. It was a game changing book on being red pill aware, and it breaks down men, women, alpha and beta males, and dating in a lot of detail, and if anyone is interested you should definitely check him out

It gives a lot of psychological and biological evidence that breaks down the social and cultural conditions that we currently live in.
That's it, I hope you all enjoyed yourselves. 

Sunday, July 14, 2019

Alan Roger Currie

MMMOOOOOODDDEEEE OOOOONNNEEE!!!

Thanks to my good friend Shawn Shaw, I know Alan Roger Currie, and his philosophies on straight forward, honest communication in approaching women that you are attracted to. Otherwise known as Mode One behavior.

Alan Roger Currie is an author and a dating coach, he has four books, "Mode One" "The Possibility of Sex" "Oooh, Say it Again" and "The Beta Male Revolution". I could do very long and extensive articles regarding each of these books separately, but I just feel like acknowledging ARC right now.

Since discovering him and his techniques and philosophies on interacting with women, I have gained a lot more sexual experiences and wisdom in the dating realm. Before knowing him I was naive about men and women's true sexual nature, the characteristics of alpha males and beta males, and learning to conquer my fears in taking action with approaching women honestly.


He is extremely intelligent and eloquent with his boldness, and has a deep understanding of masculine and feminine behavior and attraction. He does a great job of breaking down aspects of human behavior in dating and sex. He is very extensive and detailed, and allows the reader to fully understand all angles of what he is communicating.

If you are unfamiliar with mode one behavior, it is basically being upfront and honest with your romantic and sexual intentions. It is one of the four modes of communication when dealing with people. It wastes a lot less time when you are straight and to the point with your intentions. Because women already know that when you approach them, that you are interested in them sexually or romantically. Women respect and appreciate the bold honesty more so than coy and indecisive behavior from men.

Depending on the situation, I usually have no problem walking up to a woman and letting her know I am attracted to her, and would like to spend time with her. I have also talked dirty to women and gotten them to come home with me, when it seems "appropriate" to do so. Talking dirty to women is another thing he goes in to extensively. Primarily in his book "Oooh, Say it Again". It can be a scary thing to do, but it can also create some extremely fun and interesting experiences.

As a straight man, you want sex from attractive women, admit it, and don't be an incel. So you might as well let her know that you are interested and give her the opportunity to decide if she is too. Rather than pretend you are really interested in getting to know her so you can make a physical move on the third or fourth date, only to be rejected. Which can provoke you to get upset and angry that you wasted all that time.

I've done it in various places and forms and it has worked for me plenty of times. I've also done it and it hasn't worked, but the rejection came very quickly, and both parties were left self expressed and unharmed. You end up having an authentic conversation with a stranger of the opposite sex about dating and sex, and they may even wish you luck with the next gal.

And as a woman, if you are looking for a relationship with a guy. I imagine that you would rather have a man tell you off the bat that he is only interested in you sexually. Instead of pretend that he is looking for a relationship, go out on a few dates, and then have sex with you. So he could leave after he got what he wanted.

Mode One behavior has changed my life, and listening to this man's audio books has really improved my social and dating life. I invite you all to check him out, here is a brief introduction to him and the mode one approach.

I think there is an aura in the air that men are hornier than women, and this is not true. Women just want us to believe this! Because we will work harder to gain their sexual company (Spend time listening to them, and to spend money and energy impressing and flattering them) if we men believe this.

As an alpha male type, you really do not have to put this time, money and effort in to exchange orgasms with an attractive female. Just be honest and bold with your intentions, and allow women to decide if they will reciprocate or reject your advances. It makes things very simple, and saves time and energy. I suggest you check out his work and become a student of ARC if you want this for yourself.

Sunday, June 30, 2019

Corey Wayne

Coach Corey Wayne! He is a dating and life coach that I found last March while I was studying abroad in England. I could not sleep one night, so at 3am I decided to YouTube ways of attracting girls through Facebook and texting. I found a video of his, and I soon realized that I had stumbled onto something great. His advice resonated with me and I began binge watching his videos. He totally opened my eyes and changed my life regarding dating and understanding women.

He has a book called "How To Be a 3% Man" which you can get for free on Audible. He has thousands of videos on YouTube and his Website understandingrelationships.com

Image result for corey wayne 3 percent manWatching his videos and reading and rereading his book is a great free curriculum that I have been engulfed in for the last year.

Being a 3% man is basically being part of the 3% of men that understand women. The book gives a lot of advice and information about pickup, seduction, dating, and relationships. Understanding attraction and how to create it with women. Along with learning the things that most guys do to turn women off.

I imagine a lot of people have their own ideas and negative connotations about "Pickup artistry", but it goes very deep into attraction, love and understanding masculine and feminine energy.
I believe it is very important as a straight man to learn the appropriate things to say and do, along with what not to say or do with women you are attracted to.

He has thousands of coaching videos online that pair very well with the knowledge in his book, it's a great way to stay sharp with his work and be continuously learning from him. Here's one of them

He also has a book called "Mastering Yourself" which you can also get on Audible for free. He talks about his childhood, and he goes through his failures to show how he got to where he is now.

I invite you all to check him out. I watch his videos just about everyday,  he is an online mentor for me that I enjoy sharing with all the men who are open to improving their dating and social skills.

Some men are naturally good with women, I was not, it took me awhile to finally kiss a girl, so I looked for outside help, and eventually found Corey Wayne among other people like Alan Roger Currie who opened my eyes a lot as well. I'll do another post about ARC at some point. So I encourage all men to check them both out, among any other seduction gurus and dating coaches that you trust and believe in.

It can be rough and confusing when you are out their talking to and meeting women. Making mistakes is inevitable, and having a guy like this to learn from while you are making those mistakes will only help. If you stick with it, you'll learn to be better equipped as a man to go after nice looking women that you are attracted to with confidence.

My dating life is drastically better because of this bald headed fuck.


Sunday, June 23, 2019

Back from Bath a Year ago Today

One year ago today I flew home from my six month study abroad stay in Bath, England. I was torn because I had acquired an attractive, partner of the opposite sex, whom I was sad to leave. I had also made some great friends along the way, that I had to leave. Along with the students, teachers, and the acting curriculum that I participated in during my time.

Bath is a beautiful city, I loved walking around, taking in the sites, and chatting up strangers when I could. I have thought back on it a lot since my return. It doesn't seem real that it was a year ago today. The time I have been back seems like it has gone a lot faster than when I was in England.

I spent some time with the other foreign exchange students in the beginning. Luckily, the other male in the group, Mikael, was awesome, and we got along well and had some fun nights out at pubs. He was from Finland, and was very knowledgable about alcohol, he was studying philosophy, so we had a lot of great discussions. 

I soon met all of my fellow acting students, and spent time working with them, and partying with them in dorms, pubs, and clubs. And six days into my trip I found myself having unprotected sex in one of them in her room after our first night out. Awesome. I enjoyed my experience with these English acting students. I was impressed with a lot of their natural talent. I do believe English actors are trained with more rigor, and the preparation is more extensive. I met some people that I would not be surprised in seeing them in our country killing it on the next Game of Thrones type of show.

I had some fun female experiences, mostly making out at pubs and clubs and one night stands. One of them during the day, from a gal I essentially seduced at the gym. And one that I closed out my time there with. That allowed me to experience actually "dating" along with the heights of pleasure, physically and emotionally. Which later led to the depths of depression and heartbreak.

My time there was incredible. I got to be the only American in a distant land. I had some lows and feelings of loneliness and being misunderstood. Which allowed for a comeback and a peak in feeling free socially. I had the greatest spring break of my life, traveling around Southern Ireland, England and Germany, and I got to fall in love.

I am extremely lucky that I got to have this experience, and to study abroad twice in my scholastic experience. Thank you to everyone I met over there, especially those who continue to read this blog, watch my snapchats, and like my instagram posts. Living there for six months changed my life.

Sunday, May 19, 2019

What to write about

My intention for this blog was to be funny and to share stories from my past. I have taken a turn into more self helpy, relationship and female exploration, the past few months/years.

I have found value in revealing myself and sharing details that may bring value to whoever reads this. I don't always enjoy knowing that people may know certain things about me, but I enjoy when other people sacrifice parts of themselves to create relatedness. It's also a way to satisfy my ego or put myself out there and be digested by folks. 

I have been very interested in women and relationships recently. I have done a lot of research on women, seduction and dating. I find it interesting and have more fin dating now. And, with having gone through a traumatic, long distance break up. I realized that I had been neglecting a lot of what I have been learning in this realm, in pursuit of keeping the relationship alive. I was angry for awhile, and regretful of having stayed in a relationship that I could have left awhile ago, and moved on before things got so ugly. 

I felt very hurt, and I victimized myself for how the relationship ended. I later realized that everything I did, allowed for it to end the way it did. Everything I ignored about her came out, and I felt I was being "punished" for being naive and ignoring reality. 

I am now single and dating, working a full time job, graduated college and performing improv shows regularly. I am writing songs, booking solo shows and creating other performance opportunities. My life is seemingly back on track completely. I have the necessary boxes checked that I wanted to have checked at this point. I still have a lot of thoughts about my life, and want a lot more with it. I thought I might feel differently if I had all of these boxes checked, but also knew that I wouldn't be "fixed".

I don't want to share some of this. I would prefer that my family not know some of the things I share on here. And I also get that not giving a fuck would better serve me in some areas. People will read this if they want, and people will stop half way through, or not bother at all. 

We are all going to be dead someday, so why does it matter what people think of you? Well, we have to deal with them and their opinions while we are alive. So other people's opinions seem like they have importance.

In general as people, we care about what we do, what others do, and how we are perceived by the people in our lives. So we abide by societal rules that puts lids on our self expression and our potential. We live by the direction that the voice in our heads try to steer us, and we think that the voice in our head is how life really is. We think the voice in our head is right, but it is mostly just trying to keep us out of harms way, or prevent us from being fully alive. 

I don't know what I'm really saying here. I don't feel I have put enough effort into this blog this year. I don't know if I really give a shit or if I am just manufacturing it. I don't want to appear as weak, I want people to like me, I want to appear as deep and authentic. I want people to read this and get something out of it, and to think more like me. I want to figure everything out, and I don't want to struggle, I want to be comfortable. I want to be getting blown all the time, and I know that that would get old.  I want to make ignorant trash raps songs that are nothing like this blog.